... when you are brushing your teeth in the morning. I am going back to work after being off a week, and really having some anxiety issues about returning to the same job and location from whence I was sent home. There is a monumental excess of paranoia piling up over the prospect of having someone watching my every move.
I will be doing that same work that caused the problem last Sunday, so I am feeling really stressed about going back into that same situation, thinking they are looking for a reason to 'dismiss' me. Though I will admit to being somewhat amused by the irony of terminology. Do they think saying 'termination' and 'dismissal' sounds more politically correct, or less painful, than 'fired'? If it is 'PC' does that make it less traumatic and disturbing to the person who gets escorted out of the building?
If you would like, you could just put in a good word for my attitude. It needs help too. Although I keep telling myself that same line I have quoted to family frequently: "Life is too short to be miserable". And they are starting to give it back to me, reminding me that there is no reason for living in constant turmoil, with churning stomach, and continuous low-grade anxiety like a fever you can't shake. Always feeling like someone is peering over my shoulder, or so certain they can catch me in a misstep/mistake they will look at the video to see where I have failed in with compliance.
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